twenty six words...

 His msg:

If I had ever hurt you by my deeds or words…knowingly or unknowingly…I am sorry from bottom of my heart…hope you forgive me…

My reply:

Apologising in twenty six words.

Summing up three years in twenty six words.

Showing the value of my love in twenty six words.

Is it going to bring back my innocence.

Is it going to bring back my dreams.

Is it going to release me from all the pains.

So easy it is to say sorry.

So easy it is to say I didn’t mean it.

So easy it is to say move on.

You are admired for leaving me in pieces.

You rised in the eyes of “your” people.

You are praised for following the words of your “dear ones”.

Temme, is your sorry going to bring back all that I lost.

If yes then I will forgive u.

If yes then I will take all and live with it.

Disillusionment:

India at a distance seems to be a country full of mystery and beauty. With  diversity in its every strand it successfully ropes in lots of admirers but when one comes closer to it. Then, comes an utter disillusionment. Seen from the closer quarters, one is able to see the cracks in the image of this ancient land. One can call it a perfect tourist country, as the conditions and situation fills the hearts with amusement and wonders. The mismanagement and the variety in food, religion,color, caste, dress,tongue and what not presents a very unique picture to an outsider. Its just not give amusement to a foreigner but it also gives him a realisation that  “nothing is like home”.

                         Still, there are some people who have stayed back and are enjoying the “Indian circus” daily. Corruption, poverty, carelessness and hatred towards eachother fill their souls with awe. They feel amazed to see this country surviving though crippled but still breathing. Others, who prefer to leave it, feels pity for the human race in general, living in india. They also witness not “unity in diversity” but “divisions in diversity”. The only unity they see is in hatred towards eachother’s religion. Not only in religions but also in castes and subcastes. Everything they once had imagined comes down falling. They thought of india to be developed but what they find instead  is potbellied baked merchants and buisnessmen in jeans and tshirts, feeling proud in calling themselves modern but in reality are still chained in old age superstitions and in safeguarding their family name.

                In a nutshell, india is a perfect example of disillusionment and so are its people. For the sake of family pride and name they can stake the lives of any number of innocents. It is the country full of  strange ideas and ideal. Still, it’s the country of my origin and I love it with all its minuses and pluses.

The Perforated Sheet

Aadam Aziz never had the chance to see Naseem. He saw her only in parts i.e, through a perforated sheet. He sees his future wife's face for the first time on the same day, World war I ends. this chapter called "Perforated Sheet" is present in the "midnight children" written by Salman Rushdie is a metaphor, told Anita mam. She said that it is a metaphor used to describe the human perception. Analyzing it further, she said that we, humans have the tendency to look at everything from our own mind set. Our approach to take on challenges and circumstances is circumscribed to our narrow outlook. We are unable to understand the whole design or the structure of god's plan. just as Aadam looked his future wife in parts, we also tend to love others in parts.there is never a complete or whole view of person that etches us to them.

On personal level, when i read it. To me it appeared simply an introductory note to the main characters of the novel. The explanations that mam gave came like revelations. There are so many underneath meanings in every corner of the novel that it became impossible for inexperienced people like me to unravel them on our own. Under the guidance of mam we were able to collect the embedded jewels of the novel. She began by telling us that the whole novel is in narrative form and that there is more than one reality. It is like a universal story. It begins in Kashmir which is depicted in its past glory, idyllic just like the Eden garden. Aadam, represents Adam and Naseem represents Eve. So it is another version of the story of the very first man and woman. Saleem who is the narrator and the protagonist, quintessentially represents India which is a centre of so many philosophies and beliefs.