The Lost World of my Dreams

Divya is busy doing her chart work, looking focused and contented. I was also doing my analysis of a novel, trying hard to concentrate on the words but myriad thoughts about the varied problems didn’t allow me to go deep into the text. While thoughts kept me busy, I shifted the lens of my vision again towards divya and could feel the similarity. She was too perturbed by the thoughts that seemed to be controlling her. Same is the case with all, everyone look happy with their lives, but in reality they suffer from hollowness, crave for love, trust and security that they always remain devoid of. But there are some people among the millions, who really have discovered their true self and happiness. And it all happened with the realization that happiness and satisfaction is not outside, in the world, rather it dwells in oneself. We all are aware of this fact, but simply feels not doing it, as we believe in loving and depending on some or the other person, who unintentionally or intentionally becomes the cause of our pains. I am also one of them who see4ms to understand each and every moral or rule of life but flinches from the very thought of following it. There has been times when I go through the gamut of emotions, as I soon get attached with people. My life revolves around them and starts believing that they will stay with me forever. I start dwelling in my perfect fantasy world where there is nothing transitory, and at that very moment to puncture the airy and fairy dream of mine comes the “time” and in few moments snatches everything I love and leave me to live on the shattered pieces called memories. Relationships have their own glory, they create a cushion for the aching heart and help it to beat and thrive again. The only life saving from the major heart breaking is the “love” that we get in the varied relationships. I see human beings doing their best for their loved ones ignoring their own sorrows only to make them happy.
Nights becomes unbearable when the seeping realization of life glares at you. Standing alone amidst millions of smiling faces, there is a struggle to find that one face that will wipe all the unshed tears and will become the reason of your smile. This is the story of each and every heart that is being gnawed by the sharpened teeth of destiny. These unwanted elements in our lives- fate, destiny, time and circumstances are the demons which punishes us for loving others. We try to fight against it but when they had almighty with them, who is the only one who hath hatched this plan that is a reminder that we are doomed. Every soul is alone here and in possession of god who makes us dance on his tunes. We cry tears of blood and our souls smothers but he stays unaffected and untouched.