LIFE

the faces. the mind. the hollowness of every soul. everything around full of pretence, full of superficiality that it almost drains one's existence. i am far away from all this. no more a sentimental and emotional cow. i have come a long way and with whatever little experience in my life, is fully geared up to ignore the presence of the predators called humans. when i look back now, all i see is a useless girl trying to reach out for others. really, it was stupid. i was stupid in helping people get over their messsed up lives. its all over now. with no ripples in my life, its flowing smoothly without people and without god. recently i got hold of my old friend. i was happy that atlast i talked to someone from my past bad days. but after hanging up i realised that her voice was like a death knell and i dont want her neither she wants me. another day i was musing and found my mind hovering over what the "famous guy" in my life said to me that "one day you will realise that what i did was for your own good.that i left you because its for your own good self." a piece of crap. i agree, an easy way to run away, when courage is demanded.

life has been a great teacher. always eager to seperate me from all the "fake people". i am thankful to her for being so kind and cordial. with all the trials and tribulations, she has turned me into a tough girl who doesnt even give a damn when someone comes crying for help. i would like to raise my glass of tears for a toast to my dear teacher Life to whip me, to take away all my happiness, to take away all the people whom i loved and to take away all the feelings. i thank her to make out of me a complete cruel brute.